Irritated

So just a little ranting & rambling for a minute. I need to get a few things off my chest. Here we go:

First off, I've been stressing out like crazy for the past month because I have to go to court on the 11th ( a week from today) for this stupid dog problem. I've contacted so many people trying to figure out what I should do & if anyone can help me. First I called the City Court, they wouldn't give me the number for the DA. I have to find it myself. Good thing my mom works for the County. Then I contacted the Legal Aid Assistance program for Chenango County, they couldn't help me, but they could give me the number for a Lawyer Referal network. I called them, they gave me the nuber of a lawyer to contact & see if I could set up an appoitnment for a consultation. I called the lawyer & spoke with him today. He gave me some advice, but said that it actually sounds like the entire case is rediculous & he'd hate to see me throw away $500 on a case that would last 20 minutes & is totally rediculous. He suggested that I call the DA & see if we can figure something out outside of court, because he didn't think the DA would want to waste his time in court of a City Ordinance hearing that is unfounded. So... now I have to call the DA tomorrow. I'm hoping he's understanding & will listen to me. I'm also hoping that maybe he will decide to just drop this case & let it go. I'm beyond stressed & beyond irritated at this whole situation.

In addition to this court case, I have been dealing with a lot of crap with my dad. He has once again gone into hiding & is refusing to answer his phone. My mom went to visit him today & told me he's not doing well. All I can see is a few months from now she's going to go visit him again & we're going to be in the same situation we were 3 years ago when we had to take him to the hospital because his pancreas & liver were shutting down. I don't want to deal with that again. I have other things to take care of, like my family. & now I'm going to have to take care of my dad like I would a kid. My sister & I are discussing the possibility of putting him in a home of some sort if it happens again. We just can't do it anymore. I'm just hoping he smartens up & it doesn't go that far.

With both those problems looming over my head I have been depressed & irritated all the time. I find it hard to really enjoy myself, because I'm constantly worried about something or the other. I'm trying to ignore them, but I just find myself back in the same state of mind.

I'm hoping that after next week I will start to get back to normal, but as of right now I am very irritable, cranky, & distracted.

OH! & besides those things, I had an end table fall off our porch onto my head last night when I was coming up the stairs... & tonight at Walmart I got asked by a lady when I was due to have my baby... I'm not pregnant. So I have a headache & I'm apparently FAT! Great...

*Sigh* maybe having a restful weekend next weekend will make things better... I hope so.